so a bit about me

Hi, My name is Stacie. Or depends on where you go, I will usually be NWFLGL (North West Florida Girl). Yes, I was born in North west Florida to two druggies. What can i say, I am a product of the 70's. Mids 70's to be exact. My mom was a very young (and quite slutty 18 year old) and my Dad was 20. My mom had my older brother at 16 and was lost in the world because his dad did not acknowledged him. So she latched on to her brother's best friend (hence my dad).

Well through it all, here I am after a giant binge of pot smoking, I decided one early April morning, I was tired of it and wanted to be broke free of that prison. I was born April 14, 1975 at 1 something or other in the morning. Through out the years my mom went on to have 3 other kids (well one she aborted because she cheated on my dad but that is neither here nor there). All of us by different dads. This reason alone, I call her a breeder.

Thankfully (before you call CPS on a 35 year old case) my mom saw fit to have her parents raise both me and my older brother. Because of these two very loving people, I am as "well adjusted" as I am today. Many people will beg to differ with you, but seeing the madness that I came from, it is a good thing. Now my dad's sides has very good people there, people I still reach out to and consider quite normal considering the craziness they grew up in.

So I fast forward to the age of 18. I was wild and crazy by this time. There wasn't a rule to hold me in place and what and where ever I could go, I went, dragging my bestest behind me. Not always willing but she was there beside me. I thank God for her today still by my side all these years later. Yeah, I know, she deserves an award for putting up with the crap I ran her through. I even got arrested and she came and picked me up from jail. Another time, i was out with some random guy and locked my keys in the car and she came (with her dad in tow because she was on restriction) at 1 am in the morning and unlocked my car. I was on a path of self destruction (kinda sound familiar like my parents?) and she was willing to do whatever it took to keep my head above water just enough so i wouldn't drown. I have done things I am not proud of and brought her along but she stuck by side and I love her so much for it.

Being the nosey person I am, another friend of mine went to see her recruiter and I wanted to know what it was all about. However, I wasn't going to join the military, no way, NOT ME. I couldn't stand for someone to tell me how to live and how to do things. I did my own thing and that was that!! I remember distently telling my recruiter Jeff that. What his answer was or the next hour is a blur because I can't remember a darned thing he told me. All I know is that I walked outta that office signed up for the Navy and scared outta my mind, my grandparents (who had adopted 6 years before) where going to have a fit I joined the military. I was kinda scared too because what had i gotten myself into???

I ended up leaving for boot camp the next year and ended up doing 10 years of service. Kinda funny huh for someone who doesn't like anyone telling them what to do. Fast forward to today. I am a 35 year old housewife in an unhappy marriage to an alcoholic husband and we have 3 kids. I am very active in their lives and they know all about mom and her Twilight devotion (because obsession is just too strong a word). Hubby is very jealous of it and it is causing many fights between us.

This is my venting place to sort through these feelings I have. I have so much more in my back story but I didn't wanna give it all away in the first post...lol. Stick around and enjoy the ride. My life has been one crazy whirlwind and I just need to find the fire and passion I once had. here we go!! Are you ready, it's gonna be a bumpy ride!!