As 1 door closes, another 1 opens

So, my real life has been crazy lately. Not crazy as in psycho, but crazy as in busy. Today is a case in point. I will be busy with soccer games, birthday parties and a wedding. Through it all, I have a friend who is experiencing the most devastating thing in her life. It is hard to celebrate when someone is hurting and losing.

I know I can not allow this to get in the way of my kids and their activities but it still hurts none the less. I will be at soccer games, a birthday party and a wedding, while she is up at the hospital grieving. If there is anyway to help her shoulder her pain, I would. I have felt that loss before and I remember it well. This year was a tough year for me. Alexis would of been 15. 15!!!! Yeah, I can't see me with a 15 year old when my 9 year old drives me nuts! Usually on the 5's are hard years for me. I did talk to DH and told him the next few years would be hard too, 16, 18, 20. Those are major years in someones life. I just hope that in whatever way, my friend knows that she has people there for her. For those who do not know, Alexis was my first born who was born sleeping at 25 weeks. A door closes.

Another door opens. It is hard to have such a range of emotions today. Another friend of mine is marrying her soul mate. The love these two people feel just makes you wanna go out and either find yours or hug yours. I have been through the fire with this friend with her ex. He was an abusive bastard and did not deserve my friend (Don't get me started on that worthless human). Although because of him, I was able to meet her!! 1 good thing came from it. DS6 was supposed to be in the wedding but it didn't work out. She is so understanding!! I am just so excited about today for her and her man! I get to go celebrate her happy day with her.

DD8 will be going to a birthday party while we are gone to the wedding. Her lil friend is now 7!! She is excited about going! DS9's soccer coach will be picking him up to take him to Pensacola to the soccer game and DS6 has a game here in Navarre. DD8 is just gonna hang with me today until I drop her off for the party!

I think that is everything today. Such a range of emotions today!!