Monday, October 4, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Life, it really does happen
So I was just meandering through this thing called my life and i realized I hadn't posted a blog in awhile. Of course my laptop had to go and get a virus and junk so I had to spend most of last night cleaning up the mess it created. My Anti-virus didn't pick it up at first but the malware finder software did as well as my registry cleaner did and now it is acting all kinds of better.
So, I wake up this morning to the news they are considering and actress who is 9 to play Nessi. I still think DD8 has what it takes to be her but, I tell myself, I did submit her head shot back in July and let the cards fall where they may. Oh well. As soon as I made my mind up about resubmitting her, her whole world falls apart. Yeah, I find out through her teacher she has been lying, trying to cheat, been deceitful, trying to forge my signature, and is completely distracted at school. Ok, I knew I had to address these issues before I did any kind of trying to get her pushed into a movie role.
Well, she always has her dance she could fall back on. However her dance teacher said she would take care of her if she didn't straighten out because she will not be allowed to participate in dance if she still doesn't get her act together. I am not sure where this is coming from but it will stop asap! My lil diva had a rude wake up call yesterday.
So other than dealing with my Drama Diva (who is destined for some sort of stage somewhere in life) and life, I got away from my blog. This weekend the kids got to go fishing. They had a blast doing it! My work had a picnic and they got to go fish in Choctawhatchee Bay (Gotta love Indian names in my area). I wished I had more to tell you but other than belting out tunes at work with my coworker, my life has been boring as of late.
I will share one funny with you. The other day in dealing with DD8, I was telling DH about what was going on. He walks in the house and says to buckle down and get serious about school. I then told her that EVERYBODY had her number and she wasn't going to get away with anything. (I say this with a stern look on my face and a seriousness to my voice) She looks up at me and asks all kinds of innocently "DO people in Japan have my number too?" I was like, What? then it dawned on me what she said, I ruined my perfectly good mommy moment by laughing at what she said!! UGH, who knew parenting was so hard???
So, I wake up this morning to the news they are considering and actress who is 9 to play Nessi. I still think DD8 has what it takes to be her but, I tell myself, I did submit her head shot back in July and let the cards fall where they may. Oh well. As soon as I made my mind up about resubmitting her, her whole world falls apart. Yeah, I find out through her teacher she has been lying, trying to cheat, been deceitful, trying to forge my signature, and is completely distracted at school. Ok, I knew I had to address these issues before I did any kind of trying to get her pushed into a movie role.
Well, she always has her dance she could fall back on. However her dance teacher said she would take care of her if she didn't straighten out because she will not be allowed to participate in dance if she still doesn't get her act together. I am not sure where this is coming from but it will stop asap! My lil diva had a rude wake up call yesterday.
So other than dealing with my Drama Diva (who is destined for some sort of stage somewhere in life) and life, I got away from my blog. This weekend the kids got to go fishing. They had a blast doing it! My work had a picnic and they got to go fish in Choctawhatchee Bay (Gotta love Indian names in my area). I wished I had more to tell you but other than belting out tunes at work with my coworker, my life has been boring as of late.
I will share one funny with you. The other day in dealing with DD8, I was telling DH about what was going on. He walks in the house and says to buckle down and get serious about school. I then told her that EVERYBODY had her number and she wasn't going to get away with anything. (I say this with a stern look on my face and a seriousness to my voice) She looks up at me and asks all kinds of innocently "DO people in Japan have my number too?" I was like, What? then it dawned on me what she said, I ruined my perfectly good mommy moment by laughing at what she said!! UGH, who knew parenting was so hard???
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Head shot
Here is the head shot of DD8 i submitted for the role of Renesme. I think DD is too old but she is very tall. She is almost 4'9". But I am debating whether or not to resubmit! So whadda think? Should I do it? does she even look anything like you are thinking Nessie should look like? Be honest!!
The last pic I am throwing in there because i love her pose here...all on her own. This was the first day of Kindergarten for her. She was 5!
The last pic I am throwing in there because i love her pose here...all on her own. This was the first day of Kindergarten for her. She was 5!
I swear I am not blonde!!
So anything that starts out like that has to be a story in itself. Yes, normally I have a level head but sometimes, things just don't gel just right and than you have ME!!!
I woke up this morning freaking out that the kids were gonna miss the bus and I was trying desperately to get DD8 up for school and not understanding why she wasn't getting up. If you know me, I am blind as a bat without my glasses on and after she wasn't getting up, I was trying to look at the clock to figure out what time it really was to try to motivate her into moving and getting up. It was freaken 230 in the morning and not 530. man I felt like a heel then. Good thing she didn't wake up!!!
I didn't go back to bed until 430 and then I got up at 530 to get them up and ready for the bus. All of them made it out ok!! I wasn't able to get my mocha before work today but I survived!! I got one after wards. i was dragging butt today and EVERYONE wanted to know why I wasn't all kinds of happy today. I am who I am...sometimes I am not all happy and giggly but if I have enough caffeine I am.
The kids are due off the bus any min, so let me get bags checked and homework started and I will type some more. I will say I was accosted yesterday. Well is it accosted if it was willing on both parties part?? *contented sigh*
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For sale 1 DD8 who is cute as a button but we are dealing with a lying problem. Loves Dance and loves to talk. She is a wonderful big sister (except to her 2 brothers). She still sucks her thumb though (although we are trying to break the habit). We would like her back after college though. She is a good lil cleaner when she wants to and loves to snuggle in your arms.
I love my mini me, I truly do not know what I would do without her! I just hope this phase in life ends soon! Don't let the look fool you, the red eyes are pretty dead on...lol
I woke up this morning freaking out that the kids were gonna miss the bus and I was trying desperately to get DD8 up for school and not understanding why she wasn't getting up. If you know me, I am blind as a bat without my glasses on and after she wasn't getting up, I was trying to look at the clock to figure out what time it really was to try to motivate her into moving and getting up. It was freaken 230 in the morning and not 530. man I felt like a heel then. Good thing she didn't wake up!!!
I didn't go back to bed until 430 and then I got up at 530 to get them up and ready for the bus. All of them made it out ok!! I wasn't able to get my mocha before work today but I survived!! I got one after wards. i was dragging butt today and EVERYONE wanted to know why I wasn't all kinds of happy today. I am who I am...sometimes I am not all happy and giggly but if I have enough caffeine I am.
The kids are due off the bus any min, so let me get bags checked and homework started and I will type some more. I will say I was accosted yesterday. Well is it accosted if it was willing on both parties part?? *contented sigh*
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For sale 1 DD8 who is cute as a button but we are dealing with a lying problem. Loves Dance and loves to talk. She is a wonderful big sister (except to her 2 brothers). She still sucks her thumb though (although we are trying to break the habit). We would like her back after college though. She is a good lil cleaner when she wants to and loves to snuggle in your arms.
I love my mini me, I truly do not know what I would do without her! I just hope this phase in life ends soon! Don't let the look fool you, the red eyes are pretty dead on...lol
Monday, September 20, 2010
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me
I Completely love this song and I am BUGGING EVERYONE singing it everywhere!!
So let's see my day today. I got paid. Woohooo. I can't help my addiction to things. I wished i understood these things. Like I am addicted to mochas. Like seriously addicted to them. I had to stop by my work after I cashed my check and I got me one!! I also had one this morning. I was dragging hinny today!! I even had a cup of coffee too. I then became very hyper. I told my coworkers that they love me....i provide them with much entertainment. Of course i am laughing too so they are laughing with me....lol
Ok, so I am addicted to R/K too....I wished I really understood it but I can't. I have a few friends (Ang, Alice and Emily (SHG)) who help feed me this addiction....we are all pro R!! I am pro R/K!!! I need to find out why my interests peeks so much with them. I love watching videos of them. i mean they are so freaken cute together. *sigh* I have to contain myself or I will go all kinds fangirl. There is a lady who blogs too and she completely writes down everything in my mind about them. It is kinda freaky to me. ok, moving on.
I am addicted to shopping. Just saying.
I am addicted to Lady Gaga.....lol..I really love her music. Even though she is completely freaky! Her music rocks!!
My friend Emily from across the pond intro'd me to Shiny Toy guns....I heart them too! I will try to link them tomorrow!!
My day started out very off and I couldn't get my thoughts together...It was a monday at its finest!! After all the caffine kicked in and I took a Goody's, I was fine!!
DH is even being like wonderful. He is freaking me out!! He is very agreeable with me. He of course made me very happy yesterday. *happy sigh* I even commented to him about it!! He laughed!!!
Ok, I need to get dinner started!! Nothing major today...although DS9 think all men of color are Will Smith....it was quite a funny convo Mindy's DH had with him on Saturday! I told one of my coworkers who adores DS9 that, he started grinning and said cool!!!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
When the lights, go down in the city....and the sun shines on the bay....
At least I think that is the words to that song. I have no idea but it sounds good to me. I am just chilling with my peeps....I feel like busting out with the Fresh Prince theme song...Chilling out max real cool, shooting some b ball outside of the school....
Ok enough of that. I have a song in my head but can not tell you what it is. The part I keep remembering is the beginning chords and that doesn't translate well over the net...So it will remain in my head. I have had a crazy night after my insainly busy day yesterday. I fall asleep around 930 and DH wakes me up at 1030 just to tell me good night. Grrrr...takes almost 2 hrs before I fall asleep again. Well I was light sleeping (kinda resting). Then he wakes me up at 4 am to ask if I paid a bill...I mean WTF??? I was up for another 2 hrs before fall asleep again then he wakes me up at 8 to ask me for a number...grrrrrrr I am seriously??? I am tired but not too bad. He did make it up to me *evil grin* (what is it that they said in Mama Mia dot dot dot...)
We didn't go to church this morning and the boys had scouts this afternoon in which we just got home from. DS9 is a Welbo this year and DS6 is a Tiger. We have the same den leader for both and even if she does talk like a yankee, I still adore her! I really dislike the tiger year. I just want to be up front and mention that now.
So Ole boy is back home in London. I have a few friends who are talking about a road trip to go hunt him down. Man, if I was there, i would so join them!! I am in a fangirlish kinda mode today...crazy huh?? I feel like getting all giddy and *squeey* over anyone I know who is someone important to me...I know...Who the heck are these people I am going crazy over??? The ones on Twitter I sent a shout out too are awesome writers. I need to link their stories in here one day.
So yeah, I went tot he wedding yesterday and all. I had fun. I didn't drink and I didn't dance but it was very pretty. My friends were the photographers for it and I just followed them around with water bottles and carrying their camera bags..I told them I would be their apprentice and work for free just to have fun with them! They truly are some great ladies. If you are my friend on FB, you can see some of their work. They take all my pics now!!
ok, I need to get dinner started. See you tomorrow!
Ok enough of that. I have a song in my head but can not tell you what it is. The part I keep remembering is the beginning chords and that doesn't translate well over the net...So it will remain in my head. I have had a crazy night after my insainly busy day yesterday. I fall asleep around 930 and DH wakes me up at 1030 just to tell me good night. Grrrr...takes almost 2 hrs before I fall asleep again. Well I was light sleeping (kinda resting). Then he wakes me up at 4 am to ask if I paid a bill...I mean WTF??? I was up for another 2 hrs before fall asleep again then he wakes me up at 8 to ask me for a number...grrrrrrr I am seriously??? I am tired but not too bad. He did make it up to me *evil grin* (what is it that they said in Mama Mia dot dot dot...)
We didn't go to church this morning and the boys had scouts this afternoon in which we just got home from. DS9 is a Welbo this year and DS6 is a Tiger. We have the same den leader for both and even if she does talk like a yankee, I still adore her! I really dislike the tiger year. I just want to be up front and mention that now.
So Ole boy is back home in London. I have a few friends who are talking about a road trip to go hunt him down. Man, if I was there, i would so join them!! I am in a fangirlish kinda mode today...crazy huh?? I feel like getting all giddy and *squeey* over anyone I know who is someone important to me...I know...Who the heck are these people I am going crazy over??? The ones on Twitter I sent a shout out too are awesome writers. I need to link their stories in here one day.
So yeah, I went tot he wedding yesterday and all. I had fun. I didn't drink and I didn't dance but it was very pretty. My friends were the photographers for it and I just followed them around with water bottles and carrying their camera bags..I told them I would be their apprentice and work for free just to have fun with them! They truly are some great ladies. If you are my friend on FB, you can see some of their work. They take all my pics now!!
ok, I need to get dinner started. See you tomorrow!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
As 1 door closes, another 1 opens
So, my real life has been crazy lately. Not crazy as in psycho, but crazy as in busy. Today is a case in point. I will be busy with soccer games, birthday parties and a wedding. Through it all, I have a friend who is experiencing the most devastating thing in her life. It is hard to celebrate when someone is hurting and losing.
I know I can not allow this to get in the way of my kids and their activities but it still hurts none the less. I will be at soccer games, a birthday party and a wedding, while she is up at the hospital grieving. If there is anyway to help her shoulder her pain, I would. I have felt that loss before and I remember it well. This year was a tough year for me. Alexis would of been 15. 15!!!! Yeah, I can't see me with a 15 year old when my 9 year old drives me nuts! Usually on the 5's are hard years for me. I did talk to DH and told him the next few years would be hard too, 16, 18, 20. Those are major years in someones life. I just hope that in whatever way, my friend knows that she has people there for her. For those who do not know, Alexis was my first born who was born sleeping at 25 weeks. A door closes.
Another door opens. It is hard to have such a range of emotions today. Another friend of mine is marrying her soul mate. The love these two people feel just makes you wanna go out and either find yours or hug yours. I have been through the fire with this friend with her ex. He was an abusive bastard and did not deserve my friend (Don't get me started on that worthless human). Although because of him, I was able to meet her!! 1 good thing came from it. DS6 was supposed to be in the wedding but it didn't work out. She is so understanding!! I am just so excited about today for her and her man! I get to go celebrate her happy day with her.
DD8 will be going to a birthday party while we are gone to the wedding. Her lil friend is now 7!! She is excited about going! DS9's soccer coach will be picking him up to take him to Pensacola to the soccer game and DS6 has a game here in Navarre. DD8 is just gonna hang with me today until I drop her off for the party!
I think that is everything today. Such a range of emotions today!!
I know I can not allow this to get in the way of my kids and their activities but it still hurts none the less. I will be at soccer games, a birthday party and a wedding, while she is up at the hospital grieving. If there is anyway to help her shoulder her pain, I would. I have felt that loss before and I remember it well. This year was a tough year for me. Alexis would of been 15. 15!!!! Yeah, I can't see me with a 15 year old when my 9 year old drives me nuts! Usually on the 5's are hard years for me. I did talk to DH and told him the next few years would be hard too, 16, 18, 20. Those are major years in someones life. I just hope that in whatever way, my friend knows that she has people there for her. For those who do not know, Alexis was my first born who was born sleeping at 25 weeks. A door closes.
Another door opens. It is hard to have such a range of emotions today. Another friend of mine is marrying her soul mate. The love these two people feel just makes you wanna go out and either find yours or hug yours. I have been through the fire with this friend with her ex. He was an abusive bastard and did not deserve my friend (Don't get me started on that worthless human). Although because of him, I was able to meet her!! 1 good thing came from it. DS6 was supposed to be in the wedding but it didn't work out. She is so understanding!! I am just so excited about today for her and her man! I get to go celebrate her happy day with her.
DD8 will be going to a birthday party while we are gone to the wedding. Her lil friend is now 7!! She is excited about going! DS9's soccer coach will be picking him up to take him to Pensacola to the soccer game and DS6 has a game here in Navarre. DD8 is just gonna hang with me today until I drop her off for the party!
I think that is everything today. Such a range of emotions today!!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Have you ever noticed....
Life tends to take us on funny courses no matter what we have planned. It takes us down certain roads just to make us turn around and head a different direction even w/o our knowledge or our consent. the struggles and heartache we face only makes us stronger but the pain is hard to bear. Pain is temporary and Pride is forever. Embrace the course that God has planned for you, it may not be what you want, but He does.
this was my status message in FB....I hope the person I have in mind while typing this knows that no matter what, she has a lot of people supporting her.
It really does warm your heart to see so many come together to support and to defend 1 person in their time of need.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Better late than never
What a day I had today. Not a bad one at all. One to go down in the record books as being a good one!! I swear the stars were aligned and everything. Not really sure what is going on.
So my day started with my coworker and I going to breakfast. It was a nice treat for us. (Today was also DH's payday, that in itself usually helps with issues). Well, she got her results back. And everything is positive. All 8 tests she took....+. Well, I just feel so bad for her. I mean so much to do and now not really sure what to do now. I truly want to help her, I have been in her shoes. I know what it is like to be single and find yourself in this boat. I told her my story about my 1st baby and I hope that helped her to see she is not a lone. People out there care enough and will help! But after breakfast, I dropped her off at home and went to bible study.
I love the ladies group at my church. I have noticed when I do not go to church regularly I find that I tend to stray very easily.I can tell by my things I say and do when I have been going to church and when i haven't. I truly missed my bible study and I am so excited to have it back!!
After bible study, I went up to the school and volunteered with DS6's teacher and helped her out. I ended up bringing home even more things to complete. I ended up stapling everything I needed to and cutting everything out.
Then the kids came home. They even jumped right in and did all their homework without min fighting in less than 2 hrs. That is 3 kids, all homework done!!! SWEET!!! I ordered pizza as their treat tonight because of it. So now, I am about to go to bed. I can feel BS's pain (BTW, BS is my friend's screen name BellaScotia) when she said kids need to be drugged for bed....lol...DH has tried to get well......and every time he gets near me...one of the three has their radars on, I swear they trade out and keep interrupting us. So, no love tonight.
DS6 went to bed with "the bowl". I hope I wake up and it is not used. In fact all my kids keep complaining about their bellies hurting. I hope that it is just a small bug and it passes soon and they are all better. Well, I am so tired, I am going to bed.
I will leave you with the same song I left you with yesterday night on FB.....Good Night sweetheart, well, it's time to go, ba dududududu, good night sweetheart well it's time to go, I hate to say it but I really must say, good night sweetheart, good night......(sweet dreams of 3 men and a baby)
So my day started with my coworker and I going to breakfast. It was a nice treat for us. (Today was also DH's payday, that in itself usually helps with issues). Well, she got her results back. And everything is positive. All 8 tests she took....+. Well, I just feel so bad for her. I mean so much to do and now not really sure what to do now. I truly want to help her, I have been in her shoes. I know what it is like to be single and find yourself in this boat. I told her my story about my 1st baby and I hope that helped her to see she is not a lone. People out there care enough and will help! But after breakfast, I dropped her off at home and went to bible study.
I love the ladies group at my church. I have noticed when I do not go to church regularly I find that I tend to stray very easily.I can tell by my things I say and do when I have been going to church and when i haven't. I truly missed my bible study and I am so excited to have it back!!
After bible study, I went up to the school and volunteered with DS6's teacher and helped her out. I ended up bringing home even more things to complete. I ended up stapling everything I needed to and cutting everything out.
Then the kids came home. They even jumped right in and did all their homework without min fighting in less than 2 hrs. That is 3 kids, all homework done!!! SWEET!!! I ordered pizza as their treat tonight because of it. So now, I am about to go to bed. I can feel BS's pain (BTW, BS is my friend's screen name BellaScotia) when she said kids need to be drugged for bed....lol...DH has tried to get well......and every time he gets near me...one of the three has their radars on, I swear they trade out and keep interrupting us. So, no love tonight.
DS6 went to bed with "the bowl". I hope I wake up and it is not used. In fact all my kids keep complaining about their bellies hurting. I hope that it is just a small bug and it passes soon and they are all better. Well, I am so tired, I am going to bed.
I will leave you with the same song I left you with yesterday night on FB.....Good Night sweetheart, well, it's time to go, ba dududududu, good night sweetheart well it's time to go, I hate to say it but I really must say, good night sweetheart, good night......(sweet dreams of 3 men and a baby)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Ask and ye shall receive, seek and you will find....
Yeah, i kinda went all religious on you, but that is ok, this is who I am....take or leave it. Now, in to what am I referencing?? Last night, DH and I had a very long impromptu talk. It was fueled by the fact that in my twilight moms website, I participated in a card exchange to celebrate Bella's birthday (Sept 13th btw and Nessie's is the 10th). He seriously thought i was role playing pretending to be Bella. That really threw me for a loop. So he really freaked out when he took my card I received and hide it from me after he opened it too. I had a hard time explaining that 1. No I do not think I am Bella 2. no that isn't from a guy (since the originator singed it Esme) and 3. She mentions the rest of the Cullen crew in it, he thinks I am cheating on him. He really got really pissed at this. So after i explained it all to him we talked about other things going wrong in our lives. I mean he is really sincerely talking to me about this. So we hashed out some of our issues we had going on. He even forwent going to bar to talk to me. I was kinda shocked he did that. Anyways, due to certain events in my life (better left unsaid) things could not escalate beyond his bend me over backwards kissing me...it really was kinda romantic...Darn it, just when I was getting used to not liking him much!! He goes and changes my mind about things.
So i see this pic posted online that looks like Kristen is wearing Rob's GOMD shirt (that he wore in Montreal). I of course had to smile big at that....gosh, i just love the two of them together..i have no idea why but I do!!!!
Well, I have nothing other really to say other than my day has been way off today and I am having a hard time functioning. I went to bed around 930 last night too....sucks having such a bad headache!! I can't sleep for pooh. I will think about something exciting to tell y'all later when I get out of work!!!
have a great one and OH, LTiF updated last night...SWEET!~!~!~!~!~! and th STG freaken ROCK!!!
So i see this pic posted online that looks like Kristen is wearing Rob's GOMD shirt (that he wore in Montreal). I of course had to smile big at that....gosh, i just love the two of them together..i have no idea why but I do!!!!
Well, I have nothing other really to say other than my day has been way off today and I am having a hard time functioning. I went to bed around 930 last night too....sucks having such a bad headache!! I can't sleep for pooh. I will think about something exciting to tell y'all later when I get out of work!!!
have a great one and OH, LTiF updated last night...SWEET!~!~!~!~!~! and th STG freaken ROCK!!!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy!
Ok, so this morning was not that morning. Yesterday was. This morning I woke up feeling more like dog pooh. But life goes on. DS6 almost missed the bus because he, like his mother, lacked motivation today. I really need to buckle down and get his school work under control. DS9 and DD8 are starting to buckle down.
So I am lying in bed this morning drinking my mocha and playing on Fronterville when DH comes in to talk to me. Normally he has a nasty comment and something to piss me off but he actually was kind to me today. I am not sure if his release helped or not. He even came to give me a good bye kiss. of course I am left scratching my head but oh well. I got a lovely DM last night that really made me smile. Some of you know when this mysterious Person is. Of course I do nothing inappropriate with this person but it is nice just to sit and talk to someone about the blue sky and green grass some days.
I sit on break and just think about my thoughts. Man, are they all over today. I have two very good employees working with me today. In fact, I pretty much like my whole crew today. I sit and I think about what maybe R/K could be doing. What a reunion they must of had. I wonder if K made him shave that mountain man look or did she really dig it? Then are S & T near by or did they go off and go have some more site seeing fun??
Then I worry about my newest friend across the pond who really is not doing or feeling well and hasn't for a while. Kinda has me concerned. I hope the doctors can tell her something on Thursday when she goes. And as for my coworker who may be in a situation, we are going next thursday to see if we can get a blood test done.
ok, nothing fun and exciting yet, but after all, it is only 912 in the morning, plenty of time for some action later on.
Oh, one other thing....I heard the craziest thing last night. I of course was reading a really good FF when the writer was talking about man juice.....she called it Spunk....lol....then I thought of the time Rob wanted to be called Spunk Ransom.....I was dying then the writer busted out with the term Jizz.....Ok...that was it...I started up this hour long convo about the different names of it....I have heard it called mainly one thing, but I guess now I have been schooled....Have a great day, I will type more later!!
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My kids are all doing their homework and I am chilling online Listening to music and just trying to relax!! I started thinking about certain things in my life today. Why do I allow some things to get all wrapped up in my mind. I mean things that really do not mean a hill a beans, but are important to me. I need to really figure this out for my own sanity. All my kids have provided me with a humorous outlook today. I swear they are on a roll.
1. DS6 comes off the bus and brings me his book bag and asks me very sweetly "Please do my homework for me?" I laugh.
2. DD8 throws a gigantic fit when I will not help her with her homework (ie, give her the answers). She then states (in no particular order) " I hate her and she should fail 3rd grade because she will not get her homework done. She can't believe she used to call me mama because her mama would of helped her with homework. She should just leave because no one loves her here." I think she was on a roll today!!
3. DS9 comes up to me while I am listening to a lil Toto "Rosanna" and he asks me if that is Jackson's (Rathbone) band (100 Monkeys). I am like, um, no honey, this is a song I used to listen too when I was your age. I know I do not listen to 100 Monkeys that much!!
Gotta love kids!
So I am lying in bed this morning drinking my mocha and playing on Fronterville when DH comes in to talk to me. Normally he has a nasty comment and something to piss me off but he actually was kind to me today. I am not sure if his release helped or not. He even came to give me a good bye kiss. of course I am left scratching my head but oh well. I got a lovely DM last night that really made me smile. Some of you know when this mysterious Person is. Of course I do nothing inappropriate with this person but it is nice just to sit and talk to someone about the blue sky and green grass some days.
I sit on break and just think about my thoughts. Man, are they all over today. I have two very good employees working with me today. In fact, I pretty much like my whole crew today. I sit and I think about what maybe R/K could be doing. What a reunion they must of had. I wonder if K made him shave that mountain man look or did she really dig it? Then are S & T near by or did they go off and go have some more site seeing fun??
Then I worry about my newest friend across the pond who really is not doing or feeling well and hasn't for a while. Kinda has me concerned. I hope the doctors can tell her something on Thursday when she goes. And as for my coworker who may be in a situation, we are going next thursday to see if we can get a blood test done.
ok, nothing fun and exciting yet, but after all, it is only 912 in the morning, plenty of time for some action later on.
Oh, one other thing....I heard the craziest thing last night. I of course was reading a really good FF when the writer was talking about man juice.....she called it Spunk....lol....then I thought of the time Rob wanted to be called Spunk Ransom.....I was dying then the writer busted out with the term Jizz.....Ok...that was it...I started up this hour long convo about the different names of it....I have heard it called mainly one thing, but I guess now I have been schooled....Have a great day, I will type more later!!
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My kids are all doing their homework and I am chilling online Listening to music and just trying to relax!! I started thinking about certain things in my life today. Why do I allow some things to get all wrapped up in my mind. I mean things that really do not mean a hill a beans, but are important to me. I need to really figure this out for my own sanity. All my kids have provided me with a humorous outlook today. I swear they are on a roll.
1. DS6 comes off the bus and brings me his book bag and asks me very sweetly "Please do my homework for me?" I laugh.
2. DD8 throws a gigantic fit when I will not help her with her homework (ie, give her the answers). She then states (in no particular order) " I hate her and she should fail 3rd grade because she will not get her homework done. She can't believe she used to call me mama because her mama would of helped her with homework. She should just leave because no one loves her here." I think she was on a roll today!!
3. DS9 comes up to me while I am listening to a lil Toto "Rosanna" and he asks me if that is Jackson's (Rathbone) band (100 Monkeys). I am like, um, no honey, this is a song I used to listen too when I was your age. I know I do not listen to 100 Monkeys that much!!
Gotta love kids!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Another day down
So I wake up this morning and realized something important was missing from my life, my internet. UGH, I truly forgot to pay the bill. I will pay it when I get home. I am sitting at work, waiting to clock on and decided to have a breakfast burrito and just chill. I was talking with a coworker about a situation she may have gotten herself into. I dunno but things may end up having a positive turnout for her. In her case, it will be very unwelcomed. But first things first, I told her to find out and we can worry about things then.
So, I went back and read my last post and I realized that my path of self destruction was not clearly defined. Although I will not define it all the way, I just wanted to clarify the fact, I didn't get lost in the world of drugs. It was never my thing. I tried pot 2 twice and hated it and speed a few times but I enjoy sleep too much to continue taking it. I smoked for about 12 years and finally quit and now my only vice is my caffeine intake. I used to drunk very heavily but that kinda goes hand in hand with self destruction.
I hated myself for the longest time and didn't want to live. I figured if i drank enough or slept with enough guys, something would happen to me and I would end up dying. Nope, here I sit today, blogging about my adventures back in the day.
So I ended up give hubby some release last night, I hope he is a bit more personable now. I took the steps yet again to make him happy. I am tired of feeling like I am the one who has to give and give and give and all he does is take. I know he feels the same way but we truly are somewhere in the middle. We just need to find this ground. I know he thinks he is right and I think I am right. I wished he would sit down and talk to me without yelling so much.
I have 3 mins to clock in, I will continue more on my break.
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Ok, I have about 10 mins left on my break. I took time out to answer the 50 formspring questions i had in my inbox. Good ones today.
So, now that I am starting to bear my life for the world to see, I do not feel any differently. I do however like to talk and this is a good way to get things out. I was sitting in bed with DD8 last night and she was messing around in her diary and I asked her to write in it as a way to get her feeling out. She said she wanted to write about her daddy. I asked her what was on her mind, she said Pizza. I asked her to then write about pizza. We will see. I may not be able to get on here to update as much but I will continue to write in word and will transfer my writing when i get to an internet access point.
When did my life so bad? Why did I settle instead of just taking charge? I used to be that girl. i used to want to do everything. I was the one who told everyone else this is it and I was front and center. Now all I want to do is blend into the crowd. I hate the fact I am 100+ pounds over weight. it kills me but I lack the motivation to do anything about it....oh well. Break is over, I will add more later.
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I do not feel like typing anymore today. I had to drive round trip about 40 miles...the last 20 my brakes were stuck and I had to smell them the whole way home...which by the way stink high to holy Hale! I got home and my tire well was smoking....ugh...it was a very scary trip.
So, I went back and read my last post and I realized that my path of self destruction was not clearly defined. Although I will not define it all the way, I just wanted to clarify the fact, I didn't get lost in the world of drugs. It was never my thing. I tried pot 2 twice and hated it and speed a few times but I enjoy sleep too much to continue taking it. I smoked for about 12 years and finally quit and now my only vice is my caffeine intake. I used to drunk very heavily but that kinda goes hand in hand with self destruction.
I hated myself for the longest time and didn't want to live. I figured if i drank enough or slept with enough guys, something would happen to me and I would end up dying. Nope, here I sit today, blogging about my adventures back in the day.
So I ended up give hubby some release last night, I hope he is a bit more personable now. I took the steps yet again to make him happy. I am tired of feeling like I am the one who has to give and give and give and all he does is take. I know he feels the same way but we truly are somewhere in the middle. We just need to find this ground. I know he thinks he is right and I think I am right. I wished he would sit down and talk to me without yelling so much.
I have 3 mins to clock in, I will continue more on my break.
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Ok, I have about 10 mins left on my break. I took time out to answer the 50 formspring questions i had in my inbox. Good ones today.
So, now that I am starting to bear my life for the world to see, I do not feel any differently. I do however like to talk and this is a good way to get things out. I was sitting in bed with DD8 last night and she was messing around in her diary and I asked her to write in it as a way to get her feeling out. She said she wanted to write about her daddy. I asked her what was on her mind, she said Pizza. I asked her to then write about pizza. We will see. I may not be able to get on here to update as much but I will continue to write in word and will transfer my writing when i get to an internet access point.
When did my life so bad? Why did I settle instead of just taking charge? I used to be that girl. i used to want to do everything. I was the one who told everyone else this is it and I was front and center. Now all I want to do is blend into the crowd. I hate the fact I am 100+ pounds over weight. it kills me but I lack the motivation to do anything about it....oh well. Break is over, I will add more later.
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I do not feel like typing anymore today. I had to drive round trip about 40 miles...the last 20 my brakes were stuck and I had to smell them the whole way home...which by the way stink high to holy Hale! I got home and my tire well was smoking....ugh...it was a very scary trip.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
so a bit about me
Hi, My name is Stacie. Or depends on where you go, I will usually be NWFLGL (North West Florida Girl). Yes, I was born in North west Florida to two druggies. What can i say, I am a product of the 70's. Mids 70's to be exact. My mom was a very young (and quite slutty 18 year old) and my Dad was 20. My mom had my older brother at 16 and was lost in the world because his dad did not acknowledged him. So she latched on to her brother's best friend (hence my dad).
Well through it all, here I am after a giant binge of pot smoking, I decided one early April morning, I was tired of it and wanted to be broke free of that prison. I was born April 14, 1975 at 1 something or other in the morning. Through out the years my mom went on to have 3 other kids (well one she aborted because she cheated on my dad but that is neither here nor there). All of us by different dads. This reason alone, I call her a breeder.
Thankfully (before you call CPS on a 35 year old case) my mom saw fit to have her parents raise both me and my older brother. Because of these two very loving people, I am as "well adjusted" as I am today. Many people will beg to differ with you, but seeing the madness that I came from, it is a good thing. Now my dad's sides has very good people there, people I still reach out to and consider quite normal considering the craziness they grew up in.
So I fast forward to the age of 18. I was wild and crazy by this time. There wasn't a rule to hold me in place and what and where ever I could go, I went, dragging my bestest behind me. Not always willing but she was there beside me. I thank God for her today still by my side all these years later. Yeah, I know, she deserves an award for putting up with the crap I ran her through. I even got arrested and she came and picked me up from jail. Another time, i was out with some random guy and locked my keys in the car and she came (with her dad in tow because she was on restriction) at 1 am in the morning and unlocked my car. I was on a path of self destruction (kinda sound familiar like my parents?) and she was willing to do whatever it took to keep my head above water just enough so i wouldn't drown. I have done things I am not proud of and brought her along but she stuck by side and I love her so much for it.
Being the nosey person I am, another friend of mine went to see her recruiter and I wanted to know what it was all about. However, I wasn't going to join the military, no way, NOT ME. I couldn't stand for someone to tell me how to live and how to do things. I did my own thing and that was that!! I remember distently telling my recruiter Jeff that. What his answer was or the next hour is a blur because I can't remember a darned thing he told me. All I know is that I walked outta that office signed up for the Navy and scared outta my mind, my grandparents (who had adopted 6 years before) where going to have a fit I joined the military. I was kinda scared too because what had i gotten myself into???
I ended up leaving for boot camp the next year and ended up doing 10 years of service. Kinda funny huh for someone who doesn't like anyone telling them what to do. Fast forward to today. I am a 35 year old housewife in an unhappy marriage to an alcoholic husband and we have 3 kids. I am very active in their lives and they know all about mom and her Twilight devotion (because obsession is just too strong a word). Hubby is very jealous of it and it is causing many fights between us.
This is my venting place to sort through these feelings I have. I have so much more in my back story but I didn't wanna give it all away in the first post...lol. Stick around and enjoy the ride. My life has been one crazy whirlwind and I just need to find the fire and passion I once had. here we go!! Are you ready, it's gonna be a bumpy ride!!
Well through it all, here I am after a giant binge of pot smoking, I decided one early April morning, I was tired of it and wanted to be broke free of that prison. I was born April 14, 1975 at 1 something or other in the morning. Through out the years my mom went on to have 3 other kids (well one she aborted because she cheated on my dad but that is neither here nor there). All of us by different dads. This reason alone, I call her a breeder.
Thankfully (before you call CPS on a 35 year old case) my mom saw fit to have her parents raise both me and my older brother. Because of these two very loving people, I am as "well adjusted" as I am today. Many people will beg to differ with you, but seeing the madness that I came from, it is a good thing. Now my dad's sides has very good people there, people I still reach out to and consider quite normal considering the craziness they grew up in.
So I fast forward to the age of 18. I was wild and crazy by this time. There wasn't a rule to hold me in place and what and where ever I could go, I went, dragging my bestest behind me. Not always willing but she was there beside me. I thank God for her today still by my side all these years later. Yeah, I know, she deserves an award for putting up with the crap I ran her through. I even got arrested and she came and picked me up from jail. Another time, i was out with some random guy and locked my keys in the car and she came (with her dad in tow because she was on restriction) at 1 am in the morning and unlocked my car. I was on a path of self destruction (kinda sound familiar like my parents?) and she was willing to do whatever it took to keep my head above water just enough so i wouldn't drown. I have done things I am not proud of and brought her along but she stuck by side and I love her so much for it.
Being the nosey person I am, another friend of mine went to see her recruiter and I wanted to know what it was all about. However, I wasn't going to join the military, no way, NOT ME. I couldn't stand for someone to tell me how to live and how to do things. I did my own thing and that was that!! I remember distently telling my recruiter Jeff that. What his answer was or the next hour is a blur because I can't remember a darned thing he told me. All I know is that I walked outta that office signed up for the Navy and scared outta my mind, my grandparents (who had adopted 6 years before) where going to have a fit I joined the military. I was kinda scared too because what had i gotten myself into???
I ended up leaving for boot camp the next year and ended up doing 10 years of service. Kinda funny huh for someone who doesn't like anyone telling them what to do. Fast forward to today. I am a 35 year old housewife in an unhappy marriage to an alcoholic husband and we have 3 kids. I am very active in their lives and they know all about mom and her Twilight devotion (because obsession is just too strong a word). Hubby is very jealous of it and it is causing many fights between us.
This is my venting place to sort through these feelings I have. I have so much more in my back story but I didn't wanna give it all away in the first post...lol. Stick around and enjoy the ride. My life has been one crazy whirlwind and I just need to find the fire and passion I once had. here we go!! Are you ready, it's gonna be a bumpy ride!!
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